A weird introduction

Hi :) 

My name is Carlos. I am currently a High School student in the 11th grade. I'm not like your average student though, and for some reason the people that I meet aren't your average people either. If I had to describe myself as people see me I would say.... Funny, nice, kind, weird, short. But if I had to describe myself I would say.... fake, tries hard to not show sadness, depressed, tired, and a loner. Yep! We're off to a good start. Um.. the reason why I shared how people view me and how I view myself is because I want to share with you how the world sees me, and how I view myself. At school, I try to talk to whoever I can sometimes, but sometimes I just understand that no one really wants to talk to me, and I just get depressed. I feel like I really don't have friends, and that I'm just fake. I mean, people come to me all the time asking me for help with one thing or another. Whether it be with relationship help, psychological help, or any other type of help. You might wonder "Psychological help?" yep! it's weird I know. But for some reason, people seem to come to me for a lot. It's like I help everyone, but no one helps me. Now! I don't want to be like "I HATE MY LIFE! FML!" no, I don't hate my life, even though I don't love it. It does have more downs than ups, but I'm still alive, so I guess that's good :) Um. Well, I don't want to freak you out too much. I hope you read my blog :) Thanks for reading.